Growing up

I only have three quarters left of my high school career. Can the last day of my senior year come soon enough? Not a chance. Do I really want leave this old place behind? It will be tough. 

There are days that I loath another day of being trapped in the walls of my sunless high school. Then there are some days that I think on all of the people I have gotten to know. Are there any chances that I will see them after I leave? The answer is no.

While most of my days are spent daydreaming about my open future and what adventures I will have there are some days that I fall into despair over what I will lose. I will lose the comfort of home. The companionship of my friends. The worry less life I lead. I will have to gain responsibilities of having to pay bills and manage money. 

The downsides of growing up do seem intimidating but they are also far outnumbered by the promises of what I can do with the life I will lead. I can hardly wait to make new friends and meet people who sweep me away with their love of life. I can't wait to learn everything I can. The promise of adventure excites me. And the number of trips I dream of taking is overwhelming and exciting. The places I want to live, the things I want to do, and the passionate life I want to live all run through my mind daily. I want to make a difference, I want to stick out, I want to blend in and observe, I want to live life to its full capacity. I will not live long enough to experience all of the living I dream of. 

My only fear in life is not being able to do all that I dream. The only comfort I have in knowing I will choose the right adventures is Christ. God knows exactly what I will do with my life and because of this I must remind myself to always go His way. I must strengthen my faith in The Lord so as to not get lost in the storms of life. And through the perils of life with Christ I will know I am on the right path and that I am living out what I was made for.

The years I have spent growing up are all I have ever known and when I leave them my world will change. But a change for the better is all that can be promised from God. So, am I excited for my future? Yes. Will I miss my past? Yes but that is life. Do I worry about my future? No. My life is The Lord's.

Getting lost without being lost

Sorry for my absence, school has started back up again and so, I'm working on getting back into the swing of things. I have a lot of fun classes but they all promise to be a challenge for me. On top of all of that tennis conditioning has started up and season will be in full swing in a month or so.
Any way I had the privilege of going on a bit of an "adventure" before break ended and I never had a chance to fill all of you in!! The idea came from the book "How to be an Adventurer of the World" that I dedicated a post to earlier. The instructions were simply to go on a walk and every time you thought, "oh I'll go this way" you had to go the other way. The book explains it as, "getting lost without being lost."
So I set out on my journey to lose myself in my awe of the Maker but still know where I was. It was a tad bit nippy out but I was nice and bundled up! If I saw something I wanted to explore, you can bet I went.
I found myself at a neighborhood park right by one of the pools I worked at this summer. I plowed through snow drifts that met up with my knees and touched everything that was of interest to me.
I'm going to make another reference to Lord of the Rings, just because the movie is that great! In the first movie Frodo quotes Bilbo:
"It's dangerous business Frodo, going out of your door, you step into the road, and if you don't keep your feet there is no knowing where you might be swept off to."
I wasn't swept of to some crazy amazing place and I didn't find anything too amazing either. But I did find something of great importance to me, my sanity. I lost it over break after being constantly surrounded by people. On my walk I was able to connect with myself again! I was able to explore my curiosities without being questioned about what I was doing. I wandered from the beaten path and left my prints in the untouched snow.
I have so many Lord of the Rings references I could use right now but I won't use them. I'll save it all for a LOTR post I just decided I'll make in the future.
I kind of rambled on in this post, I apologize. I will try to start keeping up with posts as well!
So, if all goes as planned, so long until tomorrow!! And hopefully my post is better too!
Abbie